succurro fellowship: ordered parts

a reflection on three months of order:

order has been about finding the parts, the components that make up my life: the things i want to give my attention to. then reflecting on those bits.. in what way do they feed me? what need is filled/question answered/sustenance provided? what things do i need to release in order to have more room for what brings me joy and satisfies my desires?

part of finding order for me is about finding simplicity. there is order within chaos and chaos within order. they are also a type of spectrum. finding simplicity is a way for me to turn down the chaos for a moment and really dig into the details of what’s going on. what thoughts/actions are reactions/routine versus those which carry intention. (these unfold and become naturally apparent thru self reflection and/or in the hyperfocused mining-method called breakthrough.) recognizing old holding patterns that no longer serve me is the empowering impetus for release. there is more space, less chaos. in simplicity, i reduce variables and begin to identify more particularly how i am affected by things and the subtle energy occurrences and shifts. there’s been a lot of realigning my vision with it’s execution in the process. i am finding more cognitive consonance.  

clearing blocks and reconnecting ordered parts has been a huge part of finding order in my system during this period. places in my physical and energetic body where i’ve been holding resentment, anger, victim consciousness have been pinpointed and shifted. (sometimes it’s apparent these shifts trace back to a bodytalk or sourcepoint session and othertimes it feels more a product of many intentions and actions coalescing.)  clearing out the blocks, clearing out unnecessary chaos, leads toward order naturally.

order is all about identifying, plugging into the information, getting clear on the what. with clarity on the what, focus can shift to the when and how much as we move into balance. my initial feeling is that these ordered parts are at odds with each other; they can not coexist without friction or exhaustion. this is a limiting belief that is the first thing i release. i accept that balance, harmony, and flow are not only possible but coming.

(this post was written during my time & in reflection of fellowship with Succurro 2019-2020)